Yes, No.

Really? Is it worth it for so much?
I just feel that things are different now. Or is it me? I always question myself with "is it me"?
What if I am always the one feeling this, feeling that and not able to think right?
Sometimes I don't even know what I am crapping about.
Sometimes I feel that I am developing some sort of mental disorder. What the hell.
Sometimes I feel that I did so many people wrong because I kept disappointing them.
There's nothing I can do it right just to make myself feel good.

In addition, I am losing mentally.
It's been more than a year now but I am still the same.
CAN'T.THINK.STRAIGHT.
Now tell me how does it feels like to really really feel good?
I've lost sense in this for over too long.
I forgot what is self-control.
Monster.